Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I'm a liar

by 11 Foxtrot

To anyone who still stops by, I'm sorry. I guess you could say I'm not much of a blogger. I think that might be the reason I never post anything. I say I'm busy and for awhile it was true. I was roofing people's houses. After we'd get off work we'd head to the lake and swim and fish. Sometimes We'd head out to my friends land and shoot old couches people gave us. One thing I did do Is video document them, I don't know if I should put them on here because of what some of them contain. When we weren't swimming, fishing or shooting we'd listen for our tones to go off so we could go save people. The group of guys I work with and I are all volunteer fire fighters in the town we live in. I slacked off on the whole school thing, now I'm crunching time to apply for the post 9/11 GI bill and register for classes. Things wouldn't be that bad if I hadn't just had back surgery. I can't lift anything over a fucking milk jug. For those of you that know things about me, you know i'm pulling out my hair.
The closer school gets the more apprehensive I get. I have no idea what I want to do, I'm in a place I really don't care for and I really don't know If I want to do it anymore. Homework, research, MATH...fucking math, that means tutors, students 6yrs younger than me talking to me like I'm a fucking idiot. Awesome, I look foward to discusions where these lil punk ass high school remembrants speak about things they have no fucking clue about. I can't wait to sit in class with my OD Green Assault pack, my respect and my lack of respect for those kids that have those wood things in their ears the size of a fucking half dollar...awesome.
Stoploss, I gotta tell ya, those damn rifles we toted around for so long, the ones that you could clean for 4days straight before a board and the SMG could still find carbon on them, you know the ones that we all hated and thought were for the most part useless...I broke down and bought one. It's bad ass.


Anonymous said...

Good luck in school. If you attend every class and do all the homework/assignments/tests you will graduate. Easier said than done if your heart is not in it. Time will fly by if you find a major/professors that you really enjoy. At least that was my experience.

Anonymous said...

I don't know how the G I Bill works, but many years ago I had the unbelievable luxury of taking only classes that interested me. I wasn't mature or sensible enough to pick a major and stick it out, but boy did I have fun and learn a lot. It was the best thing that could have happened to me. I would find an instructor I liked, and take all their classes. It didn't lead to a degree, but I had a hell of a time exploring, and the intellectual freedom saved me from myself. z

themorethingschange... said...

I hope you'll find something in college that lights your fire. And even if you don't, no amount of learning is wasted. Except maybe math. ;)

Here's a tip about math - don't put it off. My sr year was comprised of all those classes I put off - math, oral interp, poetry, bleh! - plus grinding out the thesis required for graduation. I did ok grade-wise but it would have been better to have the occassional class that bored me than taking all the boring ones at once. I definitely do not recommend it.


JT said...

Have you thought of the fire academy and paramedic school?
I don't know your full past so I may be revisiting old ground- hearing you state "listening for the tones" sounds like your heart may lie closer to that side.
Professional departments pay a good wage (mostly). There is room for advancement and veterans get the points for service.
You may have considered already such. Know I'm the last person to recommend avoiding school but there can be other types of school. First (technical) and then settle a bit and then pursue a degree ala, GI bill, and get points for such if you're working in a department.
Competition is fierce right now because of the economy so it can't happen quick- but it can happen.
Just my thought!

Sabra said...

I had similar fears before starting community college last year. It turned out to not be that bad, and honestly the vets are one of the things that made it that way. Otherwise I'd probably have whacked a shit-faced 18-year-old myself. I've yet to be the oldest person in any of my classes, & I'm betting I'm a little bit older than you are.

Good luck.

Kyle S said...

School for me is just a 'grin and bear it' type thing. I think you'll find that after things that happen during a deployment (being shot at, IED's, rockets) classwork isn't a big deal.
Dealing with the kids is frustrating. You'll want to ring their damn necks. Most of them don't have a clue about the real world. College is the first time they will leave their back yard. What pisses me off is when I am in a group project and each has their part to complete but one 'didn't have time'. I then explain that I finished mine and also work full time, 2 kids, wife works, ect. There is usually not much of a response.
Like I said, just grin and bear it.

KathyB said...

Sorry about the back surgery. I know it sucks to be out of commission that way. Good luck on meeting the school deadline or not. Some will tell you that it is an opportunity too good to pass up, and they may be right. But, you may not be in that place now or ever.

My ex-husband spent his first degree, with GI Bill, figuring out how he got to Southeast Asia. Time wasted, I don't think so.

You are working on these decisions twenty four hours out of twenty-four. I worked on a college campus for almost twenty years in an area with a very small veteran student population. What I can tell you is that it helps you focus on something else.

BTW we are all liars sometimes.

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